Monday, 29 June 2015

...Don’t Ask Me What’s Next ~ Ask Me What’s Now...

 I came across a brilliant article recently, that said precisely what I've been trying to express to people for the past few years now.

I honestly have no desire to go to college & have never wanted some big fancy career.

What I want, I am already pursuing.

However, I often feel like it is completely unacceptable to those around me.
I'm made to feel like some sort of failure or loser because of what I want out of life.

Turns out, it's not just me. 

And this lady wrote it so well, I am simply going to share what she wrote here.

At first I was just going to share a link, but I am going to copy 'n' paste the entire thing here & then just give you a link so you can pursue the author & her writings further. 

Just click on the article title & the authors' name below it to go read the article in its original location & to find out more about the author.

Full credit goes  to this lady!

Both of my brothers recently had kids that more than likely complete their families. They’re both older than me, so it makes sense they’re at a different stage. They met and married their wives, they bought dogs and they had kids, all in a nice little sequence. I love watching them build their lives together. It’s a really good thing. When my last brother got married, I was in my early twenties. No one uttered anything about me getting married then.
But now? I’m 26 years old, unmarried, and childless. The comments are starting.

“What’s next?”
“When are you getting married?”
“Babies look good on you!”
“Better get started!”

I shouldn’t be overly concerned with what they’re saying. They’re only teasing or encouraging me with the next step in my life. It’s harmless! No one means anything by it, it’s just time for me to be heading in the same direction as my peers. It makes sense. I get it.
But it doesn’t feel very nice.

Believe me, I am fully aware that I am unmarried and childless. Hey, I don’t even have a real job at this point in time. I’m aware that I’m getting older. I’m aware that I’m not following the same patterns as my parents or my brothers or many of my peers. I’m aware that my biological clock is ticking. 

So when you — friends, family, acquaintances, Twitter followers and blog readers — remind me that I’m far behind where one would expect to be at my age, it makes me feel broken. I feel like I’ve done something wrong. I feel like I’m letting you down or making some horrible mistake.
Instead of relishing in the freedom, blessings and limitless possibilities that this stage of life offers me, I am left frozen, feeling like I’m not enough. Like what I’ve done doesn’t really matter or that I’ve accomplished nothing. I’m an outcast. I’m defective. I’m panicked. When you comment on my life stage as if there was something I could do to change it, it makes me feel inadequate. Most days I truly do love where I’m at right now, but when people question my marital status, I think I’m messing up my chances to do anything worthwhile with my life.

What if my ultimate goal has nothing to do with marriage or kids or a career? What if my aim was to love people well, and to fully embrace the gifts I’ve been given? Would that be enough? What if my life goal was to simply run the race, to be called a good and faithful servant at the end of it all? Maybe that would mean marriage and children and a thriving career, but maybe it wouldn’t. Is it ok if it doesn’t?

When you ask when I’m getting married, I don’t have an answer for you. When you hint at me having kids, it makes me jealous of new parents. When you prod about my lack of a stable career, I get frustrated. When you ask these questions, it doesn’t help me grow. It doesn’t help me feel content with where I am. It does more damage than you realize. Maybe you’re just trying to make conversation or small talk, or maybe you’re genuinely interested in my life. For that, I’m very appreciative.

I would like to suggest one thing, though: instead of asking me what’s next, ask me what’s now. Ask me what God is teaching me, ask me what I’m struggling with, or what brings me joy. I am learning, I am growing, and I am happy. I would love to tell you all about it.
I am 26 years old. I don’t have a husband. I don’t have children. I don’t have a career. I don’t have what people expect I should have, but I am abundantly blessed with absurd, exhilarating, and fantastic things I would have never dreamed up on my own.

So please, my dear friends, don’t ask me what’s next. Ask me what’s now.

1 comment:

  1. OMG - I can SO relate...I am older, so slightly different but the same. I didn't get married until I was 35 and EVERYONE thought it was because I was pregnant?! Then when no bump materialised all the 'When are you having children!', 'Get cracking' comments started. I even had it on Monday at the Supermarket as I had three packets of Ice lollies (hot weather this week was forecast) "Gosh you're spoiling your kids aren't you?" Er, sorry folks, I hate to disappoint - I made a conscious decision NOT to have children - this blue marble we all live on is already waaay overpopulated (no offence meant to anyone who chooses to have them) - I am godmother to three angels...but I get it - Society defines us by our profession and has expectations that X, Y and Z will happen/should happen.

    Dare to be different. Enjoy your choices. Follow your dreams, life isn't a rehearsal!