Thursday, 28 November 2013

A Backward Step of 2000+ Miles {Big Changes In My Life}

Good evening all! (or at least it is evening for me!)

Once again, I apologize for my absence. Many times I have thought about posting here, but just never have.... I don't know why.... even a short note would at least let you know I am still alive (barely)! 

I have hundreds & hundreds of photos to share with you, but I am not sure when I will be able to find time to post them. Perhaps not until the New Year, but I know y'all never mind seeing photos, even if they are a bit dated (say, oh, about a few months.... maybe a season ago....).

All I am promising right now is that I WILL eventually post ALL THOSE PHOTOS! Promise!!!!

For now, I figured I was long overdue in telling you all my news. 

I posted about it on Facebook & Twitter a while back, but not here.

The truth is, it's very hard for me to share this news because it's not happy news for me, and I know questions are bound to follow.... questions I don't have answers for. 

So I am requesting that you don't ask questions like "Why?" or say things like, "But I thought you loved Toronto!"  because right now, God has not given me any reason why this has to happen. 

Here goes. 

I am moving back to Saskatchewan


You read that right. 

Right now, all I know, is that God is telling me to leave Toronto, and back to SK is my only currently option, so that is what I am doing. 

Yes, it is tearing me apart. I am so shattered and emotionally messed up, every day is a struggle for me to keep on going. 
 I am extremely stressed out, and fighting depression, along with a myriad of other emotions that are overwhelming me.

I ask that instead of giving me advice or peppering me with questions about my decisions, that you pray for me instead!!! 

I really wish I knew why God was allowing all this to happen & asking me to let go of where I live, the career I want, and all my goals, plans, hopes, & dreams.... but He isn't telling me right now, so its a real step of faith for me to just "let it all go", not knowing all the "whys" or "reasons". 

And with all that news finally out there for the world to know..... 

It kind of explains why I haven't been around lately, hasn't it? 

Not only am I still working full time, but I have also been trying to cram in as much sight-seeing & event-attending as I possibly can, doing everything that I won't be able to do back in SK..... I am trying to see as many friends here as possible...... preparing for Christmas (decorating, cards, gifts, etc.).... as well as trying to start sorting & packing things, & making the moving plans (which has been a REAL MESS, let me tell you!!!!!). 

So if I am gone for a long time again, just know I am busy with all these changes & will return as soon as I can!

I hope you all are well! I would love a note from you!



  1. Oh Bekah, Bekah, Bekah...
    I WISH I had something I COULD say, even if you WANTED to hear it, that would fix this entire situation for you! I feel SO BADLY 4 you! I've been thinking about you a lot since I read this post... tell you what: BY HIS GRACE, from now on, whenever I think of you, I'll send a prayer up.
    I really do wish I could fix this for you, dear sweet sister. :( :( :( :( :( :( ((HUGS YOU TIGHTLY...whether or NOT you're the huggy type lol)))
    "...well I guess sometimes, you have go 2000 miles backward simply to see how many more you've gone forward."
    I promise you that I love you, and, knowing you, **winks** you will bounce back from this one, with Jesus' help, even more resilient than B4

  2. *Hugs* ~Positive Energies & Everything Your Way~~~